Pain. Chronic pain. It’s no joke. It’s debilitating. It can lead to death. It can be physically and psychologically crushing to your soul. Living with physical paralysis, for me, pales in comparison to pain. If asked that “What If” question whether I would prefer to live in chronic pain or be paralyzed, at this moment as I write this article – I choose paralysis. This is a pretty powerful statement if you think about it. I am essentially choosing to practically go broke, have people’s hands in my body all day long, have someone dress me, use catheters and suppositories, etc. Think about what I am saying.
This is how debilitating my chronic pain is. For anyone who lives in chronic pain, your life has been undoubtedly changed forever. I know mine has.
When I was living in the ICU after breaking my neck in 2010, I was one of the unlucky ones who also simultaneously suffered a very deep pressure sore on my behind, pulmonary embolisms, and died a few times. I thought “this was the worst of it” to myself. Wow, was I in for a rude awakening 3 weeks after my accident!Continue reading